Speak no evil
As teachers, we are afraid to speak out. I do not believe that educators will ever rise to the professional level of attorneys and physicians until we are able to voice our frustrations, fears and insightful ideas without fear of losing our careers. So, why are we so fearful of voicing opinions? Simply, because at the campus level, the teacher who voices an opinion is reprimanded. Now, let me qualify that statement. I am not talking about a strident dissident who is constantly complaining. What I am describing is a professional, experienced, college educated individual who simply has insight, knowledge or an opinion on a subject. That person is not welcomed in education, and I will continue with the next logical conclusion: until teachers can have input into educational decisions without fear of retaliation, we will not move forward in Texas. There can, in reality, be no educational flourishing in a state where, simultaneously, the teachers are fearful of participating vocally. Intellect and control are mutually exclusive. I do not believe they will grow in the same environment.
Why would I make such a statement? Why would I charge that school districts reward the teacher who never voices an opinion? Because I have experienced, or watched the experiences of others, who have simply tried to do what was right within moral parameters but were disciplined harshly. Specifics: first, let me say that these two experiences were several years ago in a premier district, not in the district where I presently work. In my opinion, these experiences probably could not take place in the district where I presently work.
A fourth grade teacher had a problem with anger and grabbed a student by the upper arm and left bruises on the child’s arm. The teachers on the grade level were shocked by what had happened and documented the bruises with a photo, and then went to administration quietly and respectfully so that the situation could be dealt with before it became an article in a newspaper, or, worse, a lawsuit invoked by an angry parent.
I wish I could say that the offending, angry teacher was disciplined and that the teachers who brought the situation to the attention of administrators were rewarded for protecting elementary students, but that was not what happened. What did happen, as it was related to me, was that the teachers bringing the matter to the attention of administrators were moved from their campuses and placed on campuses farther away from their homes. The teacher was moved from fourth grade down to kindergarten, with more vulnerable children.
The principle was stunning and powerful: keep your mouth shut whatever happens. If you bring unpleasant information to the attention of administration, even in the best interest of a child, you will suffer the wrath of your school district and your career will be called into question. You will become the messenger who must be killed upon the arrival of bad news to the potentate.
Secondly, as a classroom teacher, I had the experience of having an immigrant parent come to me with the information that a teacher had grabbed her daughter and left a bruise. I begged the mother to go to the principal with this information, but she was fearful of administrative reataliation, or teacher retailiation, towards her daughter. I assured her that our principal at that time was wonderful and supportive and would only act in behalf of her child. In fact, it was well known among faculty members that the principal, a wonderful child advocate, was actively trying to remove the teacher from his campus. But, the mother refused to bring the information to the forefront because of fear of what would happen to her vulnerable, elementary aged daughter at school. Unreasonable? Perhaps, perhaps not based on some of the things I have seen.
Last of all, I am reminded of an unforgiveable incident that was my own personal experience. Many years ago, in a smaller, more rural district, a child came to me in my classroom and asked if he could speak to me privately. It was the day before Thanksgiving break, and I was allowing the students to use paintbrushes and paint, and I was standing in front of the closet where the art materials were, and a student was waiting for me to pour more paint onto a paper plate. (Note to self: Never let elementary kids pour the paint or the glitter. You’ll be stuck after school cleaning the carpet.) Having no idea what the child wanted, I said, “Can it wait a bit?” He answered “No.”. so I set down the paintbrushes and paint and we walked outside. Now, bear in mind that most times, when a child absolutely, positively has to speak to you outside it’s because she thinks so-and-so has stolen her ice cream money, and then she finds it in the back of her desk, or he says another child is “saying bad things about my momma!” and twenty minutes later both children are happily romping and laughing on the playground. But, it was not to be so on this day.
The child told me, in no uncertain terms, that he was being molested by a family member. Because the charge was so egregious, I asked bluntly in unmistakable terms if the child had experienced sexual molestation and he answered in unmistakable terms and described when, where, and how it had happened, and continued to happen. I was satisfied that he was telling the truth, and I also knew the family to be abusive and dysfunctional.
I also felt as if I had, emotionally, been dragged through a sewage pipe, because the child had just described to me his experiences of being sodomized. I knew, from years of in-service on the subject, that I was bound by law to report the abuse immediately, or to risk losing my teacher certification.
I went to our counselor, who was a wonderful lady, but she was not in her office. So, I went to the principal’s office, stunned and shocked, and wishing for some small amount of emotional support. Not to be had. In fact, the principal told me there was “nothing we could do” and to leave the matter alone until such a time as the counselor could get around to it, perhaps after the holidays. He just didn’t seem very concerned. In my opinion, as the school administrator, he should have picked up the phone immediately himself, and notified the authorities.
I went back to my classroom, still emotionally distraught and sickened, and called the child abuse hotline, which, of course, didn’t answer on the day before a major holiday. So, I took the bull by the horns and called a number I found in the front of the phone book that reached the Texas state capitol. I told them who I was, that the child was being abused (there were several other children in the home) and by the time I left school that afternoon there was a white station wagon in the front yard of the child’s house that identified the car as the property of the state of Texas. The children were interviewed and removed from the home that afternoon. But, my principal was furious with me for making the call - because I should have left everything up to the school counselor who was……….not there. That is exactly the opposite of what we were instructed to do for years, upon penalty of losing our teaching certification. And, you guessed it, when time came around for evaluations, mine was horrible. Where’s the disconnect? In a rational world, I should have received recognition for having the children removed from the abusive home - but I broke the cardinal rule of public school - even though it was the legal requirement for me to do so.
Again, if these are my experiences within one individual career, how many times are they being repeated in the experiences of other Texas’ teachers? Am I some sort of educational trauma magnet of bizarre experiences? I don’t think so, I believe that “speak no evil” within educational circles in Texas has been taken to an unhealthy parameter that can actually work against the best interests of children.